the joys of not having decent advocacy.

i got a letter saying that i needed to renew my lyft service or i wouldn't have transportation anymore. i use lyft mainly to take me to and from sabathani and for my job interviews. i don't have any other transportation method- seeing as i lost my metro mobility card they sent me and i called metro mobility and they claimed that i needed to send in a new application for metro mobility and they sent me one, i don't remember what i did with it. i would normally put it in my planner but it's not in there either. i know we called them and i think we filled out ANOTHER application for it but i still haven't received anything yet. i need transportation because *GASP* NO ONE GIVES A SHIT ABOUT ME TO ADVOCATE FOR ME TO GET MY DRIVER'S LICENSE AGAIN! THOSE DICKS CAN USE THE EXCUSE I FAILED MY COGNITIVE TEST BUT I COULD ALWAYS GET A COGNITIVE COACH TO HELP ME PASS IT. just more proof that NO ONE wants to see me succeed or even live my damn life. YOU GOT THIS! *rolls eyes* you are quite possibly the worst "advocate" my grandma could've picked. she must be rolling in her grave right now at the LACK of care you've given me. i'm sure she never thought you'd be this selfish and naive when assisting me. you seriously have no idea how fuckin difficult it is for a VULNERABLE ADULT to even function in this society. it's easier for you to just ignore it and assume you know everything because i'm SICK of courage kenny where they make their money off conning clients without advocacy into attending their ridiculous excuse of a "rehab facility". YOU'VE NEVER PERSONALLY ATTENDED THERE YOURDAMNSELF. YOU'D RATHER LISTEN TO WHAT YOUR KEWLIEZ PHYSICAL THERAPIST IN-LAW SAYS! i'm pretty sure the NORMAL, CARING family member would NORMALLY take into consideration what their aunt's daughter's FIRST HAND EXPERIENCES are over an in-law who works at the place you're depending on to help distract me more, so i'm way too fuckin old to help myself to live in another state with MORE OPPORTUNITIES AND THINGS THAT INTEREST ME SINCE THIS IS MY LIFE. i deal with the consequences of my choices and i don't need people trying to mess my plans up because they want to look "good" to their in-laws. they must not like you for you to even consider forcing your cousin (who is too HEALTHY and ABLE to go there anymore.. people that help me every day have said this to me) to attend that sad ass excuse of a "rehabilitation facility". courage kenny is just trying to profit off my lack of knowledgable advocacy by gaslighting me and saying i never attended that waste of time institute before.. HM- THE CELL PHONE VIDEOS THAT I HAVE ON FACEBOOK MUST BE AI OR SOME SHIT THEN?! fuck rehabilitation. i should go into technology seeing as i can create AI videos of me at some institute which denies i went there! I'M MORE TALENTED THAN I THOUGHT! i also was thinking about how fucking stupid my family is to keep me in this state- I'M OPENING THE CAN OF WORMS EXPOSING THE SHITTY-NEGLECTFUL PARENTING OF MY MOTHER. I KNOW THAT NO ONE HAD THIS MUCH OF AN IDEA THAT SHE WAS SO FUCKING SELFISH AND SHITTY OF A PARENT TO RISK MY BODY AND HEALTH WHILE GETTING KICKED BY MY DAD. IT ALSO PROVES HOW MUCH MY FAMILY DOESN'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT MY WELL-BEING.. JUST AS LONG AS I'M STUCK BY MY SELFISH INCOMPETENT BUM OF A MOM SO SHE'S NOT THEIR PROBLEMS- SHE'S MY PROBLEM! screw you all. if and when it's up to me- THE FIRST PLACE I'M STICKING THE BUM IS IN A NURSING HOME. at least she'll probably get better care than i did from her.